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Published in Gulf News, June 6, 2006

Travelling light

The last six years have gone by so fast that I feel I haven't been in one place long enough to put down a bag - leave alone roots. My fourth change of country in five years was back to my hometown; but it had changed so much that it has taken me nearly a year to settle in again.

And the instant I feel I have made the city home again, it's time to pack up and move. Reactions to the news that my wife and I are going to the US for a couple of years are mixed. Some people still look at it as a journey to the land of opportunity. But most shake their heads and give us their condolences. There was a time when international flight was the natural thing to do, but now people who leave are looked at as being ungrateful and foolish.

We just shrug and say that now's the time for us to be hitting the road, before we get any inexplicable longings for offspring - something we've been assured will happen to us before too many years have passed.

It gets a little harder to merely shrug when looking around a devastated room full of cardboard boxes and the detritus of daily life: ATM slips, discount coupons, long-dead invitations, impotent Crocins, scratched CD-ROMS. It's difficult to be young and carefree when the packers are two hours late, and the glassware is suddenly looking as if it'll need a 20-foot container rather than the two cardboard boxes we've assigned it.

Luckily, a monumental task for us is just another day's work for the packers. It isn't long before our life is itemised, boxed and reduced to the two cubic metres that will bob across the oceans, 45 days behind us on our journey across the world.

And as we pack away possessions, we pack away friendships. Our move comes just as my best friend and his wife are returning to the city after many years in Chennai. The timing is both sad and convenient. The day they empty out cardboard boxes, we take those boxes to fill them up. As they set up their apartment, we strip ours.

So we curse and bless these few overlapping days. He sets up his Xbox and we play one nominal game: a bout that would ordinarily have been the first of thousands. We watch a quick scene on his new home-theatre set up; the moment is fleeting, but we are well aware of the happy hours that would have been.

But finally, my wife and I know that friendships will endure. Our stress - for we are quite stressed - comes from imagining ships sinking, or crane cables snapping, or thieves plundering. Our tension is triggered by the movement of physical possessions, and so I take a breath and think about what most Indians have been told from childhood. 'Don't attach yourself to worldly things' goes the advice in our epics and holy books. Even our comic books. There is no point in worrying about spatulas, CDs, frying pans and speakers getting to LA in one piece.

It seems to work. Being brought face-to-face with the potential loss of precious possessions drives home how life without them wouldn't actually be very different. Hearts would still beat, relationships would go on, and, I suspect, a sudden lightness of being would set in.

So, as our two cubic metres sail away to join us later in a strange land, we go to the airport thinking about how little we actually need to carry with us to stay whole.

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